A raindrop sheds its limitations when it merges into the
ocean. The human being similarly loses its limitations, becoming whole and
complete, when it merges into the sanctuary of its oceanic being.
The formation of each human raindrop and its journey back to
its source is a story that takes place in the holograph-like projection of
space-time.[1] Merging back
into its source is a recognition that the projection of separation, with all
its rewards and stresses, is an elaborate seeming.
What is it that prevents most humans from seeing the truth
of what they are as they're experiencing the pangs of separation and plunging
to their demise? During their formation and return home, they've accumulated a
personal story complete with many faulty beliefs about what they are. Strangely
enough, human raindrops also have the capability to question those delusions.
What obscures a clear view? Forgetfulness. When we're
engrossed in what we're viewing, we forget that we're what's viewing, not the
view.
This forgetfulness is abetted by seeking distraction.
Francis Thompson described it cogently when he wrote that we're running away
from what feels like a devouring predator but turns out to be the "hound
of heaven."[2]
Self-consciousness is disturbing because it's like a mirror reflecting no
image. When we glimpse what's looking out, we see nothing
no movement, no
sound "back there." Those are the symptoms of what we consider death.
So we turn our attention away from that view and its implications.
Seeking distraction from glimpsing the supposed threat
that's constantly behind us generates a host of obsessive compulsions that
cloud the mind. We may think about, and possibly indulge in, food or sex
obsessively for pleasure, for distraction, emotional satisfaction, tension
release, and so on. We may indulge in daydreaming or reverie along other lines
as well, such as acquisition, self-enhancement, payback, worry, and so forth.
If we have experimented with fasting, we may have gotten surprises about our
unexamined food habits. If we have experimented with chastity i.e.,
intentional abstention from sex-action we probably have gained great insight about how the
sex-drive affects our psychology. Unless we learn how to turn our attention
away from daydreaming, we will sleepwalk through life.
Questioning and waking up from the sleep of self-delusion is
a battle against the forces maintaining the status quo. It's as if two programs
were competing for dominance, with the ego-enhancement program (the champ, the
defender of the status quo) having a death grip on the win-at-any-price program
(the upstart, the challenger). "Just acquiesce," says the champ.
"It won't be all that bad. But fight me, and you'll suffer more."
If you move to an
unfamiliar city, you may find yourself tense and alert while trying to find
your way around
for a few weeks or months. But before long you revert to the
comfort of following familiar routes.
Sleepwalking along
familiar paths is the default mode of living. To awaken, something needs to
disrupt those sleep-inducing patterns. Life may provide the shocks needed to do
so, but if that's not occurring then we can create artificial tension an
intentional spiritual path.
The mind is
structured to want to "trade up." We don't give up the comfort of a
habit until the mind conceives of a bigger potential benefit. This can come in
a variety of forms. For example, some people can break a smoking habit by
scares on the health front, trading the comforts of smoking for the lowered
possibility of health discomforts. In my case, I gave up smoking when I became
disgusted with my fear of running out of cigarettes. I also replaced the
physical habit, unintentionally, with eating peanuts rather nonstop for a
little more than a year, until I felt a switch flip in my head and knew that I
was free of nicotine addiction. I tested that conviction not long afterward and
found that it was accurate. If you want to find a trustworthy "voice"
within, you have to test it to validate its accuracy.
Breaking a habit of
reverie, for example, might be accomplished with the aid of mental japa,
a Sanskrit word meaning repetition. Whenever we catch our mind wandering off
into reverie, we can repeat a phrase, or a saying, or a prayer, etc., that
we've selected for the purpose. Eventually we will learn to "turn our
head" away from the reverie without the use of japa, by employing the
procrastination technique we're all so familiar with using when there's some
task we don't want to do. Breaking a pattern of habitual worrying before being
able to fall asleep may work using a japa method, or by having rigorous
exercise before bedtime, or by a variety of other substitutes that can be found
by experimentation.
When we're having trouble breaking a habit, we need to go
into "get honest" mode. We scan the mind for our reservations until
we find them and then determine our honest priority rather than continuing to
kid ourselves. For example, if we see a "yes, but I don't
want to give up the associated pleasure" (of sexual reverie or pornography
that leads to sex-action, for example, if we're attempting a period of
abstention), which do we honestly want more: the fleeting tickle that never
fully satisfies or the freedom from a habit that prevents us from standing tall
in our own eyes?
Developing mental clarity results from seeing with the inner
eye of intuition. We have to see through or beyond the clouds of hypnotic
forgetfulness, distraction seeking, and the sleepwalking of habitual behavior.
We learn to observe without being hypnotized by movement, mesmerized by the
flickering images of the "movie" (that we call our life) that we're
viewing. The assault typically begins with a practice of solitary
contemplation, which eventually spills over into other times in our daily life.
We first develop some detachment when viewing our thoughtless drooling over
imagined acquisitions wealth, fame, sexual conquests, and so on. Next comes a
measure of being able to observe thinking without becoming lost in conceptual
narcissism, such as falling in love with our analytical skills. Observing
real-time emotions is tougher, so contemplating past emotional scenes without
getting caught up in them is a way to learn how. Becoming able to watch mental
processes such as decision-making and introspection brings more advanced
degrees of mental clarity, which leads to the observation of individuality
itself.
The final challenge of observing the observer a logical
impossibility nevertheless results in solving the mystery of awareness and
the horrendous opposition of life and death.
Developing mental clarity merely requires looking until we
know what's looking.
[1] For some
scientific speculation on the topic, see The
Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot, who popularized the independently
developed holographic theories of the universe by physicist David Bohm and
neurophysiologist Karl Pribram. [2] "The
Hound of Heaven" autobiographical poem by Francis Thompson (1859-1907) is
widely available on the Internet.
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Developing Clarity of Mind
by Art Ticknor