Jesus said: "If you bring forth what is inside you, what you bring forth will save you. If you don't bring forth what is inside you, what you don't bring forth will destroy you." ~ The Gospel of Thomas
"Nothing I Can Do About It Now"
I've got a long list of real good reasons
I've survived every situation
I've got a wild and a restless spirit
I've got the song of the voice inside me
Running through the changes
And I could cry for the time I've wasted
I'm forgiving everything that forgiveness will allow
Them that's got shall have / Them that's not shall lose
"You Are That Which Sees"
You are that which sees,
The cosmos of mind
What is your true identity?
Your identity is unseen,
"Why Are You Here?"
"There was a merchant in Baghdad who sent his servant to market to buy provisions and in a little while the servant came back, white and trembling, and said, Master, just now when I was in the marketplace I was jostled by a woman in the crowd and when I turned I saw it was Death that jostled me. She looked at me and made a threatening gesture; now lend me you horse, and I will ride away from this city and avoid my fate. I will go to Samara [84 miles north] and there Death will not find me.
"The merchant lent him his horse, and the servant mounted it, and he dug his spurs in it flanks and as fast as the horse could gallop he went.
"Then the merchant went down to the marketplace and he saw me [the speaker is Death] standing in the crowd and he came to me and said, "Why did you make a threatening gesture to my servant when you saw him this morning?
"That was not a threatening gesture, I said, it was only a start of surprise. I was astonished to see him in Baghdad, for I had an appointment with him tonight in Samarra." ~ "Appointment in Samarra," as retold by Somerset Maugham
You are here because all your life experience up to this moment led to this.
Where is the dividing line between you and not-you?
What was Gautama's obstacle during his pre-Buddha years?
What are you most sure of?
What is your primary worry/concern/quest?
What is integrity?
How do I get there
"there" being the place of completion?
But what strategy makes the most sense?
If so, as a full-scale monk or as a layman?
Or do I remain independent, picking techniques
And practicing them as long as they seem to be producing results?
Of dogs and cats and aboriginal girls finding their ways home?
Can I feel "the call" – the voice of nostalgia, the call to come Home?
Do I need to have a map and complete directions
Or do I merely need guidance for the next step?
Where I can't miss it, or do I need to be vigilant?
Can I receive it by asking where It is
Does the mind have a homing device?
If Home is the abode of our highest state of being, is prayer a progressive form of tuning in to the homing device until we've completed the return trip to our source?
Let us work and pray together and separately,
Until we recognize the Truth.
The word "meditation" has many definitions, each of which has many understandings and probably many more misunderstandings. I'm using it here to mean any attempt to go within to find the source and essential nature of our being, our I-amness .
The process of going within seems to rely on some combination of effort, intuition, and accident. Looking back over our path to self-realization, we can only speculate on what may have been helpful to us and what may have retarded our progress. And if those speculations have some accuracy, they may or may not help someone else.
The teacher or friend who has been down the path relies on intuition and a direct form of knowing, keeping their fingers crossed that they do more help than harm. If they say or imply they know what you need to do in order to "follow" them, be suspicious. Respectful doubt is a precious commodity; faith is another, although more risky.
Ramana Maharshi constructed a table of sentience, going up the levels of faulty belief to the Truth:
He annotated the table with the comment: "The mind is nothing else than the 'I'-thought. The mind and the ego are one and the same. Intellect, will, ego, and individuality are collectively the same mind."
The eyeball doesn't really see the body or the pot; the optic nerve-center doesn't really see the eyeball, etc. He constructed a ladder to demonstrate the refinement of disillusionment as we lose identification with lower levels of non-sentience.
Who or what sees the individual self? The Real Self labeled Pure Consciousness by Ramana. The occurrence is referred to by various names such as self-realization or self-recognition.
If you are That which sees, that which is truly sentient, then what's your feeling-belief about what would have to "occur on its own accord" to show you what you are?
If you can accept the word of a friend:
A. What you're searching for, knowingly or not, is what you are.
A = B | "=" as a reflexive operator; a
Isness = identity.
Living is an identity crisis, although it may be obscured by prides and paranoias. Dying while living peels away the instability, revealing the Oneness of identity.
The world is in you.
The world is outside you.
"Last week I stumbled upon my own "Harding experiment". I was scratching the back of my head and had the strangest experience. I wasn't scratching my head at all. The scratching of the back of the head was in front of me, in my field of awareness. I've always had a doubt that the body and mind weren't me, but this seemed to prove it. After a bout of girlish giggling, I played around for a bit. I started with my hands out in front of my face looking at the back of them. I slowly pulled them towards me and then backed them out of my field of vision. Once again, even behind this head, they were still strangely out in front of me." ~ James L.
You are not what you look like!" clip from 1991 Harding talk: www.youtube.com/watch?v=jcDMJvO6aHU